Saturday, January 30, 2010

TOUCHDOWN!!

Is it normal to have a child and take over 800 pictures of the kid in the first month of his life? The thing that cracks me up the most is that EVERY PICTURE IS THE SAME! I mean, let's be realistic here...he spends 95% of the time sleeping and the rest eating. So, chances are, his eyes are closed in any picture we take...Sambo, Gary and I ventured out this morning for the first run since well...just before Sam was born. Whew, I've got a long way to go! But I sure did enjoy it. Except for the part where I tripped on the sidewalk and totally fell and rolled...kind of embarrassing.

Any of you who have read way back on this blog might remember this post well...it's complete what a year and a half later?
And here's a close-up of the cutest part!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

A MONTH?!?

It's already been a month since Sam became a part of our family. While I can't remember what it was ever like without him, I also can't believe it's already been a month! It can't have been that long! He's already changed so much...I'm sure I'll be saying that a ton in the future. Right?

Three days after Sam was born, we packed the truck and drove to Utah. Call me crazy...I do...but I had my mind made up before this child was born "I would be in Utah for Christmas" - I figured, if I'm going to be in bed recovering, I might as well be in bed in Utah...and that's basically all I did while I was there...saw some family and chilled in bed or on the couch (and diapered and fed the adorable child). It wasn't really the trip to be visiting with friends, although I desperately wanted to see ALL of you! You all understand, right? I'll be back! Promise.

OK, here's what you've been asking me for...pictures to prove just how cute this little man is!

This is Gary and Sam...Sam is one week old here. During Christmas we went to Temple Square for some light action...a tradition I LOVE!

New Years Day...Sam is 12 days old.
And this is Sam now...
Oh, my heart skips a beat just looking at these pictures! I'm so in love with this child!I don't know if this kid loves the bath or just doesn't know how to cry. He doesn't cry at all when I bath him which makes for a very pleasant experience. Although, I have to admit, I still have yet to hear him cry. Whimpers...sure, but CRY? Nope. I'm sure it's only a matter of time before he figures this crying thing out, but until then, I'll consider myself one lucky mom.
I'm sure I'll have more to write about later, right now I'm just trying to figure out how to squeeze a shower in my day. :)

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Finally...

I can not believe it's already been a whole week since I had my baby. I can't believe I had a baby!

Samuel James Fears was born last Sunday December 20, 2009 at 9:17 pm. Here's the story, I'll try to make it short and sweet.

I saw my Dr. on Thursday the 17th - a day before my due date and there had been no progress since my appointment a week and a half earlier. He was on call at the Hospital that weekend and said that if I didn't hear from him on Saturday to give him a call on Sunday and he'd have me come in and see if there was any change.

Here we are just before we walked out the door. We took a picture just in case, but I was pretty sure I'd be coming home again before the baby came. (and so was the Doctor)
The doctor checked things out and still no progress at all. So, he gave me a little pill that usually helps things progress a bit. I had to lay flat for 2 hours and then walk around for 2 hours and then he was going to most likely send me home to let things hopefully progress. After the four hours, he decided to do a second dose. At 4:52pm, JUST after I was given my second dose, my water broke and the fun began!!! :) Up until that point, I was having irregular contractions but not really anything painful and strong. As soon as that water broke, everything seemed to happen really really fast. I was given my epidural somewhere around 7:00pm and by 8:00pm I was pushing.


The Doctor noticed that every time I pushed, the baby's heart rate went down quite low. He said it could be one of two things A) The cord is wrapped somewhere around the baby and is being constricted when I push or B) The placenta is being distressed with each push. Either way...it was affecting the baby's heart rate. Doctor wasn't SUPER concerned because between contractions, the heart rate went back up to normal and he seemed to recover totally fine, but warned me it could become a serious situation and to start toying with the idea that I might be needing a C-section.

Eventually, the Doctor had the nurse call in the NICU nurses as well as order a "KIWI"- basically a vacuum device. He laid out this thing that looked like a huge zip lock bag that he called the "Baby slip 'n slide" to catch the baby if he just so happened to come out that fast (which I guess happens quite a bit when the vacuum is used). Less than a minute later about six more people walked into the room. I know it was everyday life for them but I remember feeling a bit "exposed":) Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately) Sam didn't come out quite that fast. It turned into a bit of an urgent situation because his heart rate was getting lower with each push.

Finally with the help of Doc. and the KIWI, Sam's head came out and the cord was indeed wrapped around his neck. Wrapped around so tightly that the Doctor couldn't even get it off. He apologized to Gary because he wouldn't be able to cut the cord because HE was cutting it. He had to cut the cord right away to get the rest of the baby out. What ended up happening was the cord was wrapped around his neck and each push only made it tighter and tighter. The section of the cord that was around his neck was very close to the Placenta so it was like he was anchored in which is why I was pushing for so long and he wasn't moving very quickly.

As soon as Sam was completely out, Doc. quickly handed him to the NICU nurses who worked for quite a while to get him to breath. It was a scary couple minutes for me. I saw a quick glance at the hand off and his skin color looked scary. Chandra said that he honestly looked like a dead baby. I couldn't see what the nurses were doing in the corner of the room (probably some strategic nurse placement there) but I could hear them talking to Samuel and telling him to breath while they continued to do whatever they were doing. Finally, after a couple minutes I heard a little cry and the nurses all cheered. From there things continued to get better.
After they got him to a point where they could take him to the NICU they put him on me for less than 10 seconds and whisked him away for almost four hours! I made Gary go with his boy while I hung around and got a few (more like hundreds) stitches. :)
Here is Sam in the NICU, look at the little IV they gave him in his head! Sad eh? They poked him all over trying to get a vein and finally opted for one in his head.
Finally after 1:00am they brought me my baby! Of course, like every mom does, I just thought he was the cutest most perfect baby EVER...and still do!
And Gary is the cutest Dad ever! He worries about him more than I do!

And of course, I think he just gets cuter with each passing day...I already feel like I'm missing so much but I can't stop staring at him. I love to watch all the cute facial expressions he makes when he sleeps and listen to the cute sounds he makes when he's nursing and watch how he moves his little tiny toes...I can't believe those little things can actually move!
Gary is the cutest dad. This experience so far has been so amazing and such a blessing. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful husband and look forward to the future adventures in parenthood with him by my side.
I really started freaking out a bit as my due date was fast approaching because I just had NO idea what it was going to be like to have a child, to be a mother and was I REALLY ready to let my life change forever? Am I really capable of being a selfless person and putting the needs of a little child ahead of myself and how in the world am I going to be a good enough Mom? - Well, I can't even imagine my life any other way! I have loved every poopy diaper, middle of the night feeding, even the aching sore body I've had this past week because it represents something so absolutely perfect in my life.

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Need your help

So, I decided that I'd like to listen to Christmas Music while I birth this child. You know, for the REST of his life, he'll be hearing Christmas music on his birthday (and probably hate it, poor guy), I thought I might as well start the tradition the BIRTH day.
...but I need some GOOD Christmas music and I'm really out on the music scene. So, can you all pretty please share with me some of your most favorite Christmas songs (artists too, please) so I can put this play list together before it's too late?!? I'm still listening to Kenny & Dolly. Seriously! :) I'm sure a few of their songs might still make the cut, but I really need some new {a little more modern} stuff!

Baby Update: I went to the Doctor yesterday. He walked in the room and said "Now, I bet you're about ready to do anything to get this baby about now out aren't you?" and I said "Nope, this kid can't come until the 15th when my Mom comes" - He laughed out loud and said I was the first who has ever answered him with a "NO, I'm not ready" at 38.7 weeks. But after the {fun} appointment, he said he was pretty sure this kid isn't going anywhere for at least another week. Whew! (Of course, Doctors HAVE been known to be wrong a time or two. We shall see!)